living a hells life.dont remember what pure unadulterated feelings can be...i havent slept properly in more than 3months.have been studying without understanding anything.been moving around in a space isolated from the others.stressed out because of exams.stressed out by what im feeling,numbed by what i dont feel and what ive lost forever.i smile,but its on the surface.i cheer up others while i feel terrible inside.its horrible living this way.
feel marred,chokhed.dont know what to do.drained of everything...theres not a day gone by that i havent cried.
odies changed things,but there are some parts of life that even he cant penetrate through...people i trusted the most have left me,and i feel so handicapped...
god help me.
